Fool me once shame on you ... fool me twice shame on me !

okay so ive been gone for a minute and the only reason ive just been going thru alot so im going to poor it all out on this blog since im not answering nobodies phone calls and ive been holding everything in ....

so.... the man i thought i could trust and that ive been giving my all to has crossed me again.
now im not saying any names in the blog becuz i would love to BLAST some bitches on this here shit but ima be grown about the situation .

i was getting calls from people saying that theres a girl running around here like a chicken with its head cut off saying that shes been messing with my bd for 8 months and that he asked her to marry him .. ha now the silly thing about this is the marrying part its just makes me chuckele every time ... so i wasnt believing anyone at first becuz their stories wasnt making no since or maybe i just was in denial i dnt kno. until i got a phone call while i was at work saying that he called a girls phone for her and described the number to me so me i hit the bitch up on facebook asking her is it true she still hasnt responded , anyway i hit him up and ask him he denying it as usual meanwhile he just gained my trust back i just started to trust him so after two days he finally admits that he has talked to her over the phone and was texting her a couple times but was not messing with her for 8 months and was not with her that night he was just playing with the bitch when he did talk to her .

its kind of hard to deal with beuz i went thru this with him before and i felt i could trust him again i dnt no weather i should be mad sad hurt i just dont kno its just to the point were i mad at the fact that a bitch is running around her thinking she has what i got and is telling everybody. do you kno how embarrising that is ? to feel like ive been fooled and i must admit i feel very stupid . i still dont kno the truth and thats whats eating me up ,is what she saying true or is what he saying true either way i just feel like im through at this point i feel betrayed by everybody, the people that she hangs out with that hes friends with too coming to my house seeing my son and smiling in my face could have possibly knew about this and his friends doing the same and was probably congratulating him for talking to her cuz most of em are dogs and fuck with multiple bitches while they bm sits at home works and does watever for their kids and they think thats cute . i feel like he has betrayed me and my son becuz he comes home and sits in our face like he wasnt just with the next bitch or talkin to the next bitch.

i feel like i need to get rid of him and this situation cuz i dont need it nor deserve it i admit i did some wrong things but never has a dude been running around here saying he fucks wit me or had sex with me never have i been with another dude. never have i gave another dude my time , no his time . my sons time . im cuttin off his phone , keeping all his shit and he cant stay here nomore . it feels like the right thing to do becuz im so mad but is it really ? should i really kick him out with no place to go with nothin but the clothes on his back and no phone right now i would laugh at the site of that but deep down i dont wanna do that im just really confused. am i over reacting becuz i kno for a fact that he would never leave me for this bitch and that if me and her were to stand sisde by side right in front of him and make him choose their would even be any hesitation. its just the trust and betrayel from everybody that hurts me cuz i know a few of you knew about this and to like my status when i talk about me and him and to comment on my sons pics ' aww hes so cute " just fake !

i done been hurt by so many people the person i thought was my bestfriend i dont even trust no more , io thought we was gone ride kayda i did , but i feel just left in the dirt and im soo coo off you ill always love you like a sister girl and im happy about the beautiful women you have grown to be .. im so proud of you!

and maybe i overreact about some things and i get too emotional but so what thats me and once you hurt me i cant look at you the same nomore.

the only person that truly has my back is my mother . i have no brothers and sisters i just have her i met my dad when i was 16 at 19 he was took from me once again by the justice system. between that time i got to kno my dad and got to love him and feel what it was like to have a dad he didnt get to see my son born i really wanted him there but ..

SHIT HAPPENS !

just like this shit happened all i can do is move forward with the people that i once loved and cared about behind me becuz i have a son to care about now and if that means i have to leave the man i love to reach a better me then so be it cuz ill be damned if ima sit her and let him do this shit again .

now yall stay tuned cuz this is

MY PURSUIT TO HAPPYNESS !!!!!!!!!

(sorry for the misspelled words im not going back and fixing them you kno what i mean)

we are thw world youtube edition

Okay so i came across a video of the we are the world youtube edition , so this lady got 57 artist off youtube and they all recoreded a part of the song in their bathroom studio wherever and she combined them a came up with this , i just love it i dnt kno so people arnt in to shit like this but i got so excited when i listened to it :)

SMDH

this aint EVEN right ...

ay she still was talkin shit tho lol

love this ....

heres a new song by Drake and it features Jhene i guess she is soppose to be lil fizz from b2k's cousin oh has a baby by Oryan Omarion's brother ..hmm
but all in all i love this song i cant stop playing it




" and im too fly for this shhhhiiit ".

sooooo...

i've seen a couple people with blogs and thought it would be coo for me to make one i mean i have nothing better to do right ?
yea .
plus i have sooo much on my mind and not enough people to vent to with me having only one good friend in this world i think i need to do something. not that its a bad thing to only have one friend
buuuttt it gets really boring
but shit i do have a boyfriend , a nigga , a babydaddy watever he wants to be called , but he has his own friends and dont have a care in the world about the daily " giiiiirl guess what ?" talk.
latley fb&twitter has been gettin a bitch in trouble lets just say a lil birdy has been saying i put my business out there too much , i mean damn i cant say what i feel i kno the less someone knos about you the less they can use against you but im not stupid blud, cmon now like i say all the time dont nobody kno me they only kno what i want and tell them about me especially if youve never been around me you think you kno me cuz this twitter shit and this facebook ? tsk .
but on a coo note its been sunny in the rainy city the past couple days im LOVIN' IT!
but ALOT of you have been takin the sun comin out a lil too far
short ass booty shorts?
walkin arount wit your bra on?
haha what aint it only like 65 out here, simmer down young grasshopper lol!
well, my sons screaming to the top of his lungs , you kno when duty calls....
SUPERMOM!!!!!!!
CHOW!